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drinkin in the morning
around 9am
watching singers on the internet
wishing i was them
failure weighing on my mental state
harder every day
i played a show
to an empty room
i was so ashamed the way i sang
the audience was super lame and i
just hoped noone
bothered to record
and it's so contrived
these songs of mine
who is this even made for
things i love become a chore
who is this even made for
things i love become a chore
i never thought
i never seen
myself as someone cool or scene
a walking joke or anything
and i guess i
prove myself right
so here it is
the second verse
congratulations what's it worth
shit out another folksy turd
that noones ever
gonna wanna hear
and it's so contrived
these songs of mine
who is this even made for
things i love become a chore
who is this even made for
things i love become a chore
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ten dollars to my name
my life has gone in such an awful bad direction
spinning drunk every night since
the past three or four or five i don't remember
lazy, useless, deadbeat jerk
i tried a thousand times to change but nothing works
have to beg my friends to stay
i guess that im the easiest man to walk away
from
and i don't wanna be here
reality or whatevers in between
and i am sick it's sickness
im only ever happy when i drink
or im asleep
did the math inside my head
i figured out theres nothing left worth doing
had a conversation with my dad
but neither one of us was listening
and i had sex the other day
but i was thinking about drinking when i came
have to beg my friends to say
i appreciate your fucking company
dont go
and i don't wanna be here
reality or whatevers in between
and i am sick it's sickness
im only ever happy when i drink
or im asleep
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she shot me up
02:16
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i wake up angry about everyday
i thought the fear would leave
but i guess it stays
i guess it's who i am now
im in a panic about the passage of time
it's so depressing living
that kind of life
i guess it's who i am now
tonight ill be awake
dwelling on all my mistakes
i guess it's who i am now
paranoia has been eating at me
all those pretty people
on the T.V.
i guess it's who i am now
i need a way i wanna opt out the game
give me some rations and a
very dark place
i guess it's who i am now
tonight ill be awake
dwelling on all my mistakes
i guess it's who i am now x2
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6. |
david
02:41
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david's a kid in my second period class
he makes a fool of me in front of sydney
and sydney she looks very nice
ive always liked her but she's
laughing at his joke
my parents fighting
there's no hope
but there gonna learn i took my daddy's gun to school
i fantasized about him
cowering like he made me feel everyday
ive also got my sights on mrs. brooks
she singles me out picking sides
she likes to help him get a rise
outta me
like that time he shouted fag
while i was giving a speech
and she did nothing
on monday morning ill be coming
but there gonna learn i took my daddy's gun to school
i fantasized about him
cowering like he made me feel everyday
but there gonna learn i took my daddy's gun to school
i fantasized about him
cowering like he made me feel everyday
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7. |
another day, another way
04:18
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another day
hate being awake
another stupid list of
shit i gotta do
that i don't want to
fantasized about suicide
to get out of it
born confused
always envious of you
yes i guess ive always
hated myself i just make me sick
sick of tryna change accepted what it is
another day, another way
to make the same mistakes ive
proven time and time again
im incapable of learning from
what a waste
every songs about the same
which is bad cus im not
half as interesting as i think
im not half as interesting as i think
everyday
i try my best but still ashamed
there aint a place on earth thats
safe cus im afraid of me myself
subconscious like its begging me
to die
another day, another way
to make the same mistakes ive
proven time and time again
im incapable of learning from
i drink until i cant see nothing wrong
regret rang through my head like catchy songs
i never could and never will belong
just drink until you cant feel nothing wrong
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things get better
yeah whatever
i wanna lay down and die
people hate me they're always leaving
i couldn't fit in though i tried
i don't want tomorrow no
and i didn't want today
but time keeps marching on and i and i am afraid
my life story sad and boring
maybe that's why i lied
i hope there's heaven
its probably nothin
either way i guess that's fine
i don't want tomorrow no
and i didn't want today
but time keeps marching on and i and i am afraid
there's nothing i can see that makes me wanna be
i'm so disgusted by the world, these human beings
and i don't want your love, that's no good to me
the less i got easier it gets to leave
yeah
i don't want tomorrow no
and i didn't want today
but time keeps marching on and i and i am afraid
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9. |
wake up? for what?
04:16
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i pushed away the thought of aging just like yesterday
again by drinking vodka in the dark
i spent my youth on image boards and watched a lot of porn
born a reject freak who never changes
failure after failure i can only take so much
when does life get better its a joke and i'm the butt
wake up, wake up for what?
in my dreams i'm happy im in love
wake up, wake up for what?
sleep work mcdonald's booze and drugs
yeah that sounds like fun
i sniffed an adderall i thought about that powerball
whoever won that shit must have it made
i want it easy cause im awlays stoned and lazy
but it's not as cool as adult swim made me think it'd be
failure after failure i can only take so much
when does life get better it's a joke and i'm the butt
wake up, wake up for what?
in my dreams i'm happy im in love
wake up, wake up for what?
sleep work mcdonald's booze and drugs
yeah that sounds like fun
when i was younger thought that i'd be something more
not a failed musician who works at a grocery store
failure after failure i can only take so much
when does life get better it's a joke and i'm the butt
wake up, wake up for what?
in my dreams i'm happy im in love
wake up, wake up for what?
sleep work mcdonald's booze and drugs
yeah that sounds like fun
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i dont wanna be a human
i've been hating myself
and everyone else
the world is scary i don't wanna be a part of it all
so exposed and small
and i can't be something that i know i'm not
i want this very hateful thinking to stop
stop
and it's a shame to me
i can't believe that this is all i will be
and it's a pain to see
myself through the child in me
i don't wanna get better that's a waste of time
already ruined my life
the world is evil i imagine people happy i die
wasn't made for this fight
and i can't be something that i know i'm not
i want this very hateful thinking to stop
stop
and it's a shame to me
i can't believe that this is all i will be
and it's a pain to see
myself through the child in me
i can't believe that this is all i will be
i can't believe that this is all i will be
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11. |
i just got older
04:20
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i got addicted to speed
you got a job and got married
oh i cringe at my optimism then
oh i'll show ya
oh i'll show ya
i thought i'd be a fucking star
and pay my bills playing guitar
so many things went wrong i don't know where to start
i got older
i got older
but life don't stop
like it or not
i'd really like a bullet in my head
i'd really like a bullet in my head
had a dream i was at your house
a fancy mansion looked around
things were rough back then but look at you now
you got better
i stayed the same
your husband took ya by the arm
a hundred acres in your yard
all that he gave to you
man, seeing that was hard
and i got older
i got older
but life don't stop
like it or not
i'd really like a bullet in my head
i'd really like a bullet in my head
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daddy wanted an engineer
03:14
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there ain't a time of day
when i feel ok unless i'm drunk i'm bottled up
death my love i hope she comes
there's nothing for me here
daddy wanted an engineer
but i became a fast food cook
from cutting class skimming books
when things get hard i sing this mantra to myself
i'll do something else
i'll do something else
i'll do something else
on my deathbed never failed
i never tried
stoned and lazy
regret battered my mind
shot in my shaking hand
drank a bunch inhaled oh man
it felt like being someone
a man who didn't hate himself
there's nothing for me here
daddy wanted an engineer
an engineer
when things get hard i sing this mantra to myself
i'll do something else
i'll do something else
i'll do something else
on my deathbed never failed
i never tried
stoned and lazy regret
battered my mind
battered my mind
battered my mind
battered my mind
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13. |
luster
03:01
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lady luck has shined me her last tooth
now there's nothing left to do
but live as victims of the sin
god cleanse my eyes i fear i'll die
before i learn to love the rocks
i pushup crushing me again
i did not sign up for this
i miss the innocence
that i once knew long ago
waking up sure does get old
i am evil you are gold
isabel's done fairly well
although she does possess a lack
of curses plus both of her legs
and i have fallen to the west
my spirit faltered and compressed
for they have shipwrecked both my heads
and i've grown amongst the weeds
as serpents sucked the blood from me
and lived on time decayed remains
luster all lost to the drain
luster all lost to the drain
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life didn't pan out for me and that's okay
most people die unfulfilled
im joining the rest, tried my best
some people just made to lose
some people just made to lose
foolish i thought i could be
the man on the stage or t.v.
now that dream is dead
regret in my head
some people just made to lose
some people just made to lose
some people just made to lose
some people just made to lose
some people just made to lose
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southmouse Conway, Arkansas
alt-country act from Conway, Arkansas
business contact:
southmouseband@gmail.com
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